post 17

kenape susah org nak faham perasaan kiter.... a bonus question: what will do if your best friend confess to that he like you... but you dun have feelings from him.... will you accept or ignore him???if you ignore what will you tell him???.... OMG!!! furthermore you know him since secondary school.... its hard for me to accept a new comer in my life.... i have my lesson... and i dun wanna make the same mistake over and over again....pity him... itu lah kelemahan aku... cepat kesian kan org.... walau da macam maner teruk pun org tu buat kat.. walaupun bukan salah aku...pasal simpati...aku sanggup mintak maaf kat org 2..... tapi kenape aku buat gitu??? nak namer? nak org 2 ingat aku? aku pun tak faham.... aku sedih biler baca blog dier... aku da bnyk buat salah tanpa aku menyedari nya.... banyak hati2 org da aku lukakan walaupun aku bernia baik... salahkah aku jika aku masih tidak dapat menerimanya? salahkah aku jika aku hanya menganggap nyer teman?.... persoalan demi persoalan bermain di fikiran ku....

kini dier sudah putus asa.... kerna AKU.... mungkin juga salah aku.... betul jugak kater org... kiter buat baik tak ader org nampak tapi biler skali buat jahat, selama2nyer org ingat..... aku hanyer tak mahu persahabatan kiter hancur setelah menjalani hubungan... sudah aku terangkan tapi dier tak juga mengerti... aper perlu aku buat... aku buntu.... patutkah aku tinggal mendiamkan diri.... pretend nothing happens... i can't... seriously can't..... hanyer satu solusi... meninggal diam atau jauhkan diri darinyer.... tapi klu aku buat sedemikian, aku sudah kehilangan seorang kawan yang amat aku sayangi..... yang ada saat dibutukan.... yang ada bersama dlm suka and duka.... wajarkah aku meninggalkan nyer hanyer sebab itu... sungguh tak munasabah.....

apakah solusi nyer???????????????????????????????

post16

da lama tak tulis.... its getting towards the end of 2007.... well banyak benda terjadi di rumah mahupun di sekolah.... klu nak cakap pasal changes di rumah... takan ada FULLSTOP... everyday things changes... now and then....well.... first of all... alhamdulilah mak da dapat kerja.... suatu perubahan pada dirinya sebab da 17 tahun die jadi FULL TYME housewife.... kekadang kesian jugak.... mak da bnyk berkorban demi keluarga ini.... terlalu besar pengorbanan mak dan ayah... cuba banyakkan dengan gaji ayah $1200 sebulan... die harus menampung suatu keluarga yang besar... membesarkan 5 orang anak dengan usaha serta titik peluhnya sendiri demi untuk menampung dan memenuhi keperluan setiap ahli keluarga... dan demi mencari rezeki yang halal sanggup die berkerja pada jangka masa panjang.... masa ini pun die masih belum balik... katanya ada cruise... klu tak pukul 12 lambat2 pukul 1 pagi baru sampai rumah....mak nak kerja sebab nak bantu ayah.... bill makin lama makin naik.... everything naik.... nak g pasar pun harga barangan da naik.... nasib baik mak ada kepandaian memasak.... setiap pagi dier bangun 3.30 pagi untuk bersengkang mata nak buat nasi lemak & nasi sambal goreng untuk dijual di kedai... walaubagaimanapun rezeki keluarga ku alhamdulilah... murah... kadang2 ada orang order nasi lemak & juga epok2... dapat juga tanbah pendapatan keluarga... syukur alhamdulilah... keluarga aku masih dapat berasa kesenangan.... klu nak difikirkan.. klu keluarga aku susah.... mungkin ada keluarga yang lebih susah dari keluarga aku.... mungkin ada yang lebih teruk.... ada yang sampai berpecah belah dibuatnya..hmm... my sis macam ader problem.. its hard 4 me 2 describe.... dier suka berahsia... susah org nak faham.... but de fact is she always have financial problem.... problem yang macam tak ada ending... speaking of which nate baru balik 2 hari lepas.... balik dari "holiday"...haha.... "holiday" dari jalan2 around de estate area.... nearly a week die tak balik... haha.... masa balik de first thing die cari.... MAKANAN.... selambe ajer g tmpt makan.... die da kurus... the main thing everyONE miss him... haha... asyik dok terfikir die makan aper?? tido kat mana?? gaduh ke dengan kucing lain?? well everyone will fight 4 their territory.... haha... even human beings.... haish.... kat sekolah pulak... hari 2 de gerlz at my class... ada conflict.... alah its normal... MISUNDERSTANDING of course.... susah nak ceritakan... btw my class are hunting 4 PRATA around singapore... haha... that tyme we go thomson road.... makan at prata house not bad ar.... but i dun eat much.. its de fact.... masa celebrate D bday kat seoul garden pun... bayar mahal2, $28... makan tak banyak.... macam buang duit g2.... that time me tgh demam.... rabak almost 1 week.... de first ever time ada fever begitu lama.... tak makan nearly 5 hari... haha... den we try at school.... i dun eat.... hehe..... oh ya.... tgh common test week... 2 papers hane gone... lagi satu paper... this friday... 11 to 12.30pm.... after that me class have plans... to celebrate.... harap2 tak la drg hunt 4 prata... hehe.... this month asyik hujan ajer.... oh ya b4 me 4get.... i plan 2 join de school excursion to cambodia.... mak oi..... ader selection semua..... this 28 to 29 dec. ada camp kat skola... for team buliding... macam malas g2 nak pergi.... g cambodia for volunteering werk... mostly ajar drg simple english... and basic computer stuff... haha... syak2.... ajar org.... haha... can't imagine syak ajar org.... haha... de trip is 4 18 days..... i guess leaving my family for 18 days is way tooooo long... haha... tapi me dulu ada niat nak tolong org for overseas.... now i have de opportunity... try my luck... ader chance tgk list of people who are going.... there's 21 org tak salah... either 3 ofus have to give up.... harap2 dapat pergi... amin.... sampai sini ajer lah dulu... nak tgk O.K.B.........

post 15 (25 ramadhan)

haish..... hari raya is just around de corner.... hahak..... rasa macam sekejap bulan ramadhan nie da nak habis..... oh ya............... smlm me family got another shocking news.... a news about death again.... this tyme is from me mother sides.... quite a tragic ones.... me mom cousin met an accident... he was driving his van near the bedok reservoir.... i think his on his way home from werk.... from what me heard from me mom..... he was sooooo sleepy and went out of control..... the van hit a tree.... whereas.... his stomach hit the steering...... i think the great impact coz' his death.... gosh..... he died on this way to CGH... poor his family.... the wife told me mom that..... that afternoon their family gonna buy the hari raya clothing..... unfortunely, god lurve her husband most.... de body was brought home from hospital late this afternoon.... the amazing thing was... his death was bless.... why???..... on the way bringing his body home from hospital... the weather was pretty bad.... raining HEAVILY.....but it stops once they carry de body out from the casket to his family house.... it starts raining back when the body was safely in the house...... but then it stops AGAIN.... when its tyme to bury..... he is a good men... as what me heard from me mom.... compared to his wife.... me father saw his van crashed to a tree on his way back home but didn't noe it was one of our cuz'...... hopefully his soul is peace...... amin......

quote 4 today!!!
Death comes to all. But great achievements build a monument which shall endure until the sun grows cold

post 14 (23 ramadhan)

mungkin ada hikmah why nari semua tak bangun sahur and tak niat malam semalam.... today.... me have to go from places to places.... shocking news and more..... morning... follow me mother to go to me uncle work place.... den g mukmin minimart ada voucher... den g sheng shiong bedok.... nak beli botol coz' me mom ader jual popiah ikat kay masjid kassim.... alhamdulilah laku... de brooch also laku..... alhamdulilah... berkat RAMADHAN..... rezeki bertambah... but at de same time banyak nak kena beli for hari raya.... me family stress coz' of money problem.... isk3..... setiap perkara ada lawannya... jgn mengeluh syak.... den about 12 pm.... me mom got a shocking news from me sis.... datuksaudara nyer isteri meninggal.... kat CGH.... kesian die ada banyak penyakit... afterall we ain't close.... kerna tinggak quite close to CGH.... we(me mom, 2 sis, grandpa n me) pergi.... lagipun husband dier confuse tak tau nak buat aper....me mom suggest klu tak ramai saudara2 yang dtg nak tengok.... bawak ajer pergi pusara aman..... den kebumi.... jadi mayat tak tunggu lama.... lagipun dier meninggal 9am.... when we got to the hospital thinking that they're still dere..... g tingkat 8 ward 48 katil 10.... tak ada orang... dengan katil2 skali tak ada..... nurse in-charge kata da bawa g mortuary.... first tyme go down to de mortuary..... unfortunely, no one was dere.... not a single manusia.... quite eerie.... tunggu nyer tunggu mortuary nyer orang tak ada... i call de nurse at ward 48 again.... rupa-rupanya..... mayat da bawak balik... once de casket is dere..... haish..... effortless, we went home.... malam nie g kenduri tahlil kat rumah dier kat UBI.....

mudah2han ALLAH mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnye.... terutama di bulan yang suci lagi barakah ini.... amin....

smlm teman adik g terapy kat KKH.... lutut dier ada problem.... have to go for operation... money again.... lepas tu g bugis.... ronda2.... i bought a beg $33 but huggle dpt $28.... den beli baju..... teman adeq buka puasa.... haha........ walaupun tak puasa...... hahaaaaaaaaa..... that's all folks..................................

post13 (21 ramadhan)

alhamdulilah.... lagi 9 hari nak berayer.... hahak.... masuk hari ini da 4 hari cuti..... hehe.... hmm.... kuih muih blom start buat.... baju rayer da tempah.... guess what for de whole family nyer baju... which is family of 7.... only $100+.... murahkan... haish.... sebaik rumah da paint semua... at least less things to do.... only shifting and adjusting the posture of de furniture... oh ya.... wanna see de effects of the burning happened on de void deck de other day...

until now no action is taken... hmmm...

wanna see nate's picture??

hahakk.... handsome kan!!

lately dier asyik tidor je.... membesar agaknyer.... aniwae.... tetap dier maintain CUTE... smalam pergi tampines.... me and me sis nak beli barang brooch... everything cost around $50.... expensive jugak.... aiyayai.... den pergi tampines mall.... walk2.... me bought jeans, perfume and thumb drive..... yang lame da hilang.... actually nak cari paint rumah... pergi cari sampai afghan.... last2 tak ader kedai yang jual.... haish.... at tampines interchange.... memandang me and me sis cuti puasa.... kita plan nak beli air milo ice.... almaklum lah ada ramai orang melayu.... kena sunyi2 beli.... memandangkan muke me sis macam orang cine.... dier la yang beli air.... siap cakap cina lagi.... supaya orang tak suspicious.... klakar..... at least dapat minum.... terpaksa ckp omputih jer.... aniwae.... bulan puasa ader je plan yang tak masuk akal...... hahak

QUOTE 4 TODAY!!!

"Love looks not with eyes, but with the mind. And therefore is wing'd cupid painted blind nor hath love's mind of any judgement taste. Wings and no eyes figure unheady haste. And therfore is love said to be a child. Because in choice, he is oft beguilded."- Helena from "A Midsummer Night's Dream" -- William Shakespeare

post 12(14 ramadhan)

nari tak buat aper2..... dere this one crite kat tv sedih seh.... "awakenings"....buke makan mee soto.... me sis beli kat bedok interchange... from inspirasi stall..... sodap... bnyk ayam..... fuh.... syiok... 2morrow me mom ada appoinment dengan doctor @ tampines polyclinic.... me following... hehe.... tadi nate lompat tinggi seh.... imagine from a table top die nak lompat to de wall..... tinggi seh... tak tau ada aper kat wall.... tak senang hati.... dis days die asyik meow ajer... tak tau nak aper.... hari tu ne sis bawak nate g rumah kawan die... nak "kahwin"kan nate dengan kucing pars dier.... nate sampai sane macam kena trauma seh.... senyap jer.... makan tak nak... lari2 tak nak.... jual mahal pulak dengan kuching betina.... hahak... dier duduk sane satu hari jer.... sbab me sis fren ckp nate nampak lain macam ajer.... stress.... hahak..... tetiba surrounding tukar.... saper tak panic.... lagi pat saner bising.... si nate ini pulak penakut... tak blh bising2... klu bising die sembunyi.... klakar.... biler nate tak ada rindu jugak.... masa die lari rumah berhari2 tak balik.... isk3... me bro sampai nangis nate tak balik..... sensitive katakan... one more fact pasal nate... die suka makan crackers2.... pantang klu orang beli keropok.... seaweed pun ngap.... itu favourite die.... dengar jer bunyi plastic die tau crackers.... da makan macam manusia.... haish... nate....nate
cakap pasal nate memang tak abis.... ingat dulu masa nate hilang berhari2... den me siblings found a newborn kitten.... we take and "adopt" it... tadi satu hari jer..... wanna know Y??.... kucing tu ada diarrheao(cirit-birit).... haha..... one of me sis kena seh..... klakar rabak..... nate de best cat eva..... hari raye lagi 2 weeks tak sabar..... hahak....
hmm...... me still thinking nak tulis short story.... tapi tak menjadi.... no ilham.... ada pun buat separuh jalan terus blank.... tak abis2...
cepat masa berlalu.... tau2 ajer nanti da hari rayer... haish... nanti da start skola.... busy dengan project2 lagi.... oh ya.... for me comlimentary subject i got thinking n problem solving.... hmm.. agaknya belom tiba masanya untuk amik foreign language... i choose german... but me fren got it..... neva mind.... ingat syak ur motto,"jangan menyesal dengan apa yang dah berlaku atau terjadi"...... so mungkin ia bukan rezeki mu... hahak...
haish... life is toooooooooooooo short... nari sihat maner tau bsok sakit... nari kaya raya maner tau bsok jatuh miskin.... n nari suka2 maner tau bsok nangis teresak2.... life is full of mistery.... our fate is god's secret... never noe what happen tomorow... renung2kanlah......

Quote 4 today!!!
Live as if you were to die tomorrow.

post 11

tadi tak g madrasah..... penat seh smlm g roundess geylang..... smlm buka kat coffeeshop @ 527.... me order chicken claypot.... ok lah sodap.... mak oi.... minum air pepsi twist sampai 2 tin seh.... paginya tak sahur.... kecian deh lu... tersadar 5.45am.... tak segaja.... de day b4 pun tak sahur.... terlagak timing.... hehe.... now me realise that me can't join de crowd anymore... its tooooooooooooo stuffy..... tak blh angkat..... now i can handle my hot temper.... hmmm....... just take a LONG DEEP breath.... ..fuh......... in........ out....... a few tymes.... then relaxs..... easy.... hmmm...... nari dok pat rumah jer.... paint de chairs..... hmm..... nari me nak buka KFC(ayam lagi)..... one of me favourite fast food restaurants.... home delivery..... its me treat... sekali sekala.... bukan senang nak tgk me belanja..... haish...... lagi 19 hari rayer... lagi 21 hari skola.... nie holiday pun do nothing..... kemas2 rumah jek... nak cari kerja... nak cari kerja.... tapi tak cari2......hmmmmm..... mayb next year kerja.... maybe jek...... hahak... isk3 syak..... HANYUT............. 29 september seha plan g buke same2.... kat daerah bugis..... makan murtabak.... see first whether me can make it or not........ shuld go....bukan slalu jumper drg...... skrang semua da buat hal masing2..... walau apapun we still keep in touch..... some only didn't..... hmmm............ well i juz hope we remain frens 4ever.....sometimes distants keeps us together.... maybe even closer.... to some....

Quote 4 today!!!

Life is like a game of cards. The hand that is dealt you represents determinism; the way you play it is free will.Jawaharal Nehru