post16

da lama tak tulis.... its getting towards the end of 2007.... well banyak benda terjadi di rumah mahupun di sekolah.... klu nak cakap pasal changes di rumah... takan ada FULLSTOP... everyday things changes... now and then....well.... first of all... alhamdulilah mak da dapat kerja.... suatu perubahan pada dirinya sebab da 17 tahun die jadi FULL TYME housewife.... kekadang kesian jugak.... mak da bnyk berkorban demi keluarga ini.... terlalu besar pengorbanan mak dan ayah... cuba banyakkan dengan gaji ayah $1200 sebulan... die harus menampung suatu keluarga yang besar... membesarkan 5 orang anak dengan usaha serta titik peluhnya sendiri demi untuk menampung dan memenuhi keperluan setiap ahli keluarga... dan demi mencari rezeki yang halal sanggup die berkerja pada jangka masa panjang.... masa ini pun die masih belum balik... katanya ada cruise... klu tak pukul 12 lambat2 pukul 1 pagi baru sampai rumah....mak nak kerja sebab nak bantu ayah.... bill makin lama makin naik.... everything naik.... nak g pasar pun harga barangan da naik.... nasib baik mak ada kepandaian memasak.... setiap pagi dier bangun 3.30 pagi untuk bersengkang mata nak buat nasi lemak & nasi sambal goreng untuk dijual di kedai... walaubagaimanapun rezeki keluarga ku alhamdulilah... murah... kadang2 ada orang order nasi lemak & juga epok2... dapat juga tanbah pendapatan keluarga... syukur alhamdulilah... keluarga aku masih dapat berasa kesenangan.... klu nak difikirkan.. klu keluarga aku susah.... mungkin ada keluarga yang lebih susah dari keluarga aku.... mungkin ada yang lebih teruk.... ada yang sampai berpecah belah dibuatnya..hmm... my sis macam ader problem.. its hard 4 me 2 describe.... dier suka berahsia... susah org nak faham.... but de fact is she always have financial problem.... problem yang macam tak ada ending... speaking of which nate baru balik 2 hari lepas.... balik dari "holiday"...haha.... "holiday" dari jalan2 around de estate area.... nearly a week die tak balik... haha.... masa balik de first thing die cari.... MAKANAN.... selambe ajer g tmpt makan.... die da kurus... the main thing everyONE miss him... haha... asyik dok terfikir die makan aper?? tido kat mana?? gaduh ke dengan kucing lain?? well everyone will fight 4 their territory.... haha... even human beings.... haish.... kat sekolah pulak... hari 2 de gerlz at my class... ada conflict.... alah its normal... MISUNDERSTANDING of course.... susah nak ceritakan... btw my class are hunting 4 PRATA around singapore... haha... that tyme we go thomson road.... makan at prata house not bad ar.... but i dun eat much.. its de fact.... masa celebrate D bday kat seoul garden pun... bayar mahal2, $28... makan tak banyak.... macam buang duit g2.... that time me tgh demam.... rabak almost 1 week.... de first ever time ada fever begitu lama.... tak makan nearly 5 hari... haha... den we try at school.... i dun eat.... hehe..... oh ya.... tgh common test week... 2 papers hane gone... lagi satu paper... this friday... 11 to 12.30pm.... after that me class have plans... to celebrate.... harap2 tak la drg hunt 4 prata... hehe.... this month asyik hujan ajer.... oh ya b4 me 4get.... i plan 2 join de school excursion to cambodia.... mak oi..... ader selection semua..... this 28 to 29 dec. ada camp kat skola... for team buliding... macam malas g2 nak pergi.... g cambodia for volunteering werk... mostly ajar drg simple english... and basic computer stuff... haha... syak2.... ajar org.... haha... can't imagine syak ajar org.... haha... de trip is 4 18 days..... i guess leaving my family for 18 days is way tooooo long... haha... tapi me dulu ada niat nak tolong org for overseas.... now i have de opportunity... try my luck... ader chance tgk list of people who are going.... there's 21 org tak salah... either 3 ofus have to give up.... harap2 dapat pergi... amin.... sampai sini ajer lah dulu... nak tgk O.K.B.........

post 15 (25 ramadhan)

haish..... hari raya is just around de corner.... hahak..... rasa macam sekejap bulan ramadhan nie da nak habis..... oh ya............... smlm me family got another shocking news.... a news about death again.... this tyme is from me mother sides.... quite a tragic ones.... me mom cousin met an accident... he was driving his van near the bedok reservoir.... i think his on his way home from werk.... from what me heard from me mom..... he was sooooo sleepy and went out of control..... the van hit a tree.... whereas.... his stomach hit the steering...... i think the great impact coz' his death.... gosh..... he died on this way to CGH... poor his family.... the wife told me mom that..... that afternoon their family gonna buy the hari raya clothing..... unfortunely, god lurve her husband most.... de body was brought home from hospital late this afternoon.... the amazing thing was... his death was bless.... why???..... on the way bringing his body home from hospital... the weather was pretty bad.... raining HEAVILY.....but it stops once they carry de body out from the casket to his family house.... it starts raining back when the body was safely in the house...... but then it stops AGAIN.... when its tyme to bury..... he is a good men... as what me heard from me mom.... compared to his wife.... me father saw his van crashed to a tree on his way back home but didn't noe it was one of our cuz'...... hopefully his soul is peace...... amin......

quote 4 today!!!
Death comes to all. But great achievements build a monument which shall endure until the sun grows cold

post 14 (23 ramadhan)

mungkin ada hikmah why nari semua tak bangun sahur and tak niat malam semalam.... today.... me have to go from places to places.... shocking news and more..... morning... follow me mother to go to me uncle work place.... den g mukmin minimart ada voucher... den g sheng shiong bedok.... nak beli botol coz' me mom ader jual popiah ikat kay masjid kassim.... alhamdulilah laku... de brooch also laku..... alhamdulilah... berkat RAMADHAN..... rezeki bertambah... but at de same time banyak nak kena beli for hari raya.... me family stress coz' of money problem.... isk3..... setiap perkara ada lawannya... jgn mengeluh syak.... den about 12 pm.... me mom got a shocking news from me sis.... datuksaudara nyer isteri meninggal.... kat CGH.... kesian die ada banyak penyakit... afterall we ain't close.... kerna tinggak quite close to CGH.... we(me mom, 2 sis, grandpa n me) pergi.... lagipun husband dier confuse tak tau nak buat aper....me mom suggest klu tak ramai saudara2 yang dtg nak tengok.... bawak ajer pergi pusara aman..... den kebumi.... jadi mayat tak tunggu lama.... lagipun dier meninggal 9am.... when we got to the hospital thinking that they're still dere..... g tingkat 8 ward 48 katil 10.... tak ada orang... dengan katil2 skali tak ada..... nurse in-charge kata da bawa g mortuary.... first tyme go down to de mortuary..... unfortunely, no one was dere.... not a single manusia.... quite eerie.... tunggu nyer tunggu mortuary nyer orang tak ada... i call de nurse at ward 48 again.... rupa-rupanya..... mayat da bawak balik... once de casket is dere..... haish..... effortless, we went home.... malam nie g kenduri tahlil kat rumah dier kat UBI.....

mudah2han ALLAH mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnye.... terutama di bulan yang suci lagi barakah ini.... amin....

smlm teman adik g terapy kat KKH.... lutut dier ada problem.... have to go for operation... money again.... lepas tu g bugis.... ronda2.... i bought a beg $33 but huggle dpt $28.... den beli baju..... teman adeq buka puasa.... haha........ walaupun tak puasa...... hahaaaaaaaaa..... that's all folks..................................

post13 (21 ramadhan)

alhamdulilah.... lagi 9 hari nak berayer.... hahak.... masuk hari ini da 4 hari cuti..... hehe.... hmm.... kuih muih blom start buat.... baju rayer da tempah.... guess what for de whole family nyer baju... which is family of 7.... only $100+.... murahkan... haish.... sebaik rumah da paint semua... at least less things to do.... only shifting and adjusting the posture of de furniture... oh ya.... wanna see de effects of the burning happened on de void deck de other day...

until now no action is taken... hmmm...

wanna see nate's picture??

hahakk.... handsome kan!!

lately dier asyik tidor je.... membesar agaknyer.... aniwae.... tetap dier maintain CUTE... smalam pergi tampines.... me and me sis nak beli barang brooch... everything cost around $50.... expensive jugak.... aiyayai.... den pergi tampines mall.... walk2.... me bought jeans, perfume and thumb drive..... yang lame da hilang.... actually nak cari paint rumah... pergi cari sampai afghan.... last2 tak ader kedai yang jual.... haish.... at tampines interchange.... memandang me and me sis cuti puasa.... kita plan nak beli air milo ice.... almaklum lah ada ramai orang melayu.... kena sunyi2 beli.... memandangkan muke me sis macam orang cine.... dier la yang beli air.... siap cakap cina lagi.... supaya orang tak suspicious.... klakar..... at least dapat minum.... terpaksa ckp omputih jer.... aniwae.... bulan puasa ader je plan yang tak masuk akal...... hahak

QUOTE 4 TODAY!!!

"Love looks not with eyes, but with the mind. And therefore is wing'd cupid painted blind nor hath love's mind of any judgement taste. Wings and no eyes figure unheady haste. And therfore is love said to be a child. Because in choice, he is oft beguilded."- Helena from "A Midsummer Night's Dream" -- William Shakespeare

post 12(14 ramadhan)

nari tak buat aper2..... dere this one crite kat tv sedih seh.... "awakenings"....buke makan mee soto.... me sis beli kat bedok interchange... from inspirasi stall..... sodap... bnyk ayam..... fuh.... syiok... 2morrow me mom ada appoinment dengan doctor @ tampines polyclinic.... me following... hehe.... tadi nate lompat tinggi seh.... imagine from a table top die nak lompat to de wall..... tinggi seh... tak tau ada aper kat wall.... tak senang hati.... dis days die asyik meow ajer... tak tau nak aper.... hari tu ne sis bawak nate g rumah kawan die... nak "kahwin"kan nate dengan kucing pars dier.... nate sampai sane macam kena trauma seh.... senyap jer.... makan tak nak... lari2 tak nak.... jual mahal pulak dengan kuching betina.... hahak... dier duduk sane satu hari jer.... sbab me sis fren ckp nate nampak lain macam ajer.... stress.... hahak..... tetiba surrounding tukar.... saper tak panic.... lagi pat saner bising.... si nate ini pulak penakut... tak blh bising2... klu bising die sembunyi.... klakar.... biler nate tak ada rindu jugak.... masa die lari rumah berhari2 tak balik.... isk3... me bro sampai nangis nate tak balik..... sensitive katakan... one more fact pasal nate... die suka makan crackers2.... pantang klu orang beli keropok.... seaweed pun ngap.... itu favourite die.... dengar jer bunyi plastic die tau crackers.... da makan macam manusia.... haish... nate....nate
cakap pasal nate memang tak abis.... ingat dulu masa nate hilang berhari2... den me siblings found a newborn kitten.... we take and "adopt" it... tadi satu hari jer..... wanna know Y??.... kucing tu ada diarrheao(cirit-birit).... haha..... one of me sis kena seh..... klakar rabak..... nate de best cat eva..... hari raye lagi 2 weeks tak sabar..... hahak....
hmm...... me still thinking nak tulis short story.... tapi tak menjadi.... no ilham.... ada pun buat separuh jalan terus blank.... tak abis2...
cepat masa berlalu.... tau2 ajer nanti da hari rayer... haish... nanti da start skola.... busy dengan project2 lagi.... oh ya.... for me comlimentary subject i got thinking n problem solving.... hmm.. agaknya belom tiba masanya untuk amik foreign language... i choose german... but me fren got it..... neva mind.... ingat syak ur motto,"jangan menyesal dengan apa yang dah berlaku atau terjadi"...... so mungkin ia bukan rezeki mu... hahak...
haish... life is toooooooooooooo short... nari sihat maner tau bsok sakit... nari kaya raya maner tau bsok jatuh miskin.... n nari suka2 maner tau bsok nangis teresak2.... life is full of mistery.... our fate is god's secret... never noe what happen tomorow... renung2kanlah......

Quote 4 today!!!
Live as if you were to die tomorrow.

post 11

tadi tak g madrasah..... penat seh smlm g roundess geylang..... smlm buka kat coffeeshop @ 527.... me order chicken claypot.... ok lah sodap.... mak oi.... minum air pepsi twist sampai 2 tin seh.... paginya tak sahur.... kecian deh lu... tersadar 5.45am.... tak segaja.... de day b4 pun tak sahur.... terlagak timing.... hehe.... now me realise that me can't join de crowd anymore... its tooooooooooooo stuffy..... tak blh angkat..... now i can handle my hot temper.... hmmm....... just take a LONG DEEP breath.... ..fuh......... in........ out....... a few tymes.... then relaxs..... easy.... hmmm...... nari dok pat rumah jer.... paint de chairs..... hmm..... nari me nak buka KFC(ayam lagi)..... one of me favourite fast food restaurants.... home delivery..... its me treat... sekali sekala.... bukan senang nak tgk me belanja..... haish...... lagi 19 hari rayer... lagi 21 hari skola.... nie holiday pun do nothing..... kemas2 rumah jek... nak cari kerja... nak cari kerja.... tapi tak cari2......hmmmmm..... mayb next year kerja.... maybe jek...... hahak... isk3 syak..... HANYUT............. 29 september seha plan g buke same2.... kat daerah bugis..... makan murtabak.... see first whether me can make it or not........ shuld go....bukan slalu jumper drg...... skrang semua da buat hal masing2..... walau apapun we still keep in touch..... some only didn't..... hmmm............ well i juz hope we remain frens 4ever.....sometimes distants keeps us together.... maybe even closer.... to some....

Quote 4 today!!!

Life is like a game of cards. The hand that is dealt you represents determinism; the way you play it is free will.Jawaharal Nehru

post 10

diam tak diam dah 8 hari puasa..... everythin went on smoothly.... mak sibuk buih juadah untuk antar kat masjid kassim.... setiap petang buat...... hmmm........ this week tak bnyk buat benda... on mon and tues antar atok g hospital.... g check-up..... on monday... nak tunggu kusmanget nyer lama..... can u believe it me, ma sis and atok datang hospital from 1+ sampai around 6..... just to wait for de BLOODY doctor...... mintak ampun mendak nyer..... oh ya..... i bought new hp 5200... ewah..... da maju...... hehe....... malam nie ada ANTM a.k.a american next top model.... hehe.....me house have a new paint.... look more spacious now..... smlam g bazar geylang..... lamer tak turun geylang.... rindu..... klu dulu sblom sibok kat masjid, asyik g geylang jer........ blh jadi 2nd house........ smlam tak bnyk round sbab we reach ard 11+ pm...... bnyk kedai da tutup.... hehe... on de 19 sept 2007 result da release...... ALHAMDULILAH me pass all de subject.... hapie u!!! de most shocking thing is tat i score A for me math......... ALHAMDULILAH.....


engineering math---- A
engineering science----B
electrical principles---B+
analog elecronics---C+
computer and programming---C
communications skills---C+
complimentary math---B+

post 9

i was looking thru my things wen i found photos while in secondary school...hahak de memories back..... here are some of de photos i found....

Quote 4 today!!!

Let me tell you I am better acquainted with you for a long absence, as men are with themselves for a long affliction: absence does but hold off a friend, to make one see him the truer

post 8

4 days 3 nite(3 to 6 september 2007) at costa sand chalet.... i slept dere for 2nights... hmm not bad... on de first dae we met at 2.30pm but i was dere at 3pm... haha.... dun want 2 be de first person reach again... our chalet no. was S-04..... its quite squizzy... furthermore its like 12 of us dere..... dere was sarah,dorcas,shen xin,edmund,douglas,benjamin,desmond,nicholas,faizal,kum fai,sze tuan,reva and me..... de first day we didn't do much things...juz chill out... some play murderer and de rest play mahjong... we knockoff at about 4+ am.... and woke up 7+am de next morning..... so sleepy...... 2nd day....kind of boring.... i tend to go home first at about 12pm...... but den come back around 6.30 pm for de BBQ.... kinda of fun.... i went back home around 10+pm coz, de next dae i have floorball training.... oh ya!!! we made sarah a SURPRISE belated bday "party".... desmond bought de cake.... sarah was really surprise...hahak.... de funny thing is dat sarah got smash by de cake...... edmund do it.....

here are some pix at de chalet on de 2nd nite....

reva cutting de cake.... beside her was sarah and edmund

edmund was getting ready 2 smash de cake

sarah... after de cake was smash 2 her face.... sadly i didn't took her face

its edmund tyme being smash....hahak

on de next dae... i went to de chalet after training... soooooooooo tired... when i reach dey are BBQ-ing.... so tired to eat.... hahak during dr training i fall down...it was de firdt tyme i fall... funny arh... 6 september was de last day.... we were supposed to check out at 10.30am... some of us including woke up at 10am..... we all rush...... luckily we check out on tyme.....hahak... i took bus 17 home.... home sweet home again... maybe this would be de last day we gather... after that we had our 6 weeks break..... anything can happen within that 6 weeks.... fasting month is 1 week ahead...... guess spending most of my holiday at de mosque.... hahak.... tired... me body is aching.....WOW!!!!!

Quote 4 today!!!

People never know how special someone is until they leave, but maybe sometimes its important to leave, so they are given that chance to see how special that someone really is!

blog 7

OH MY GOD!!!!! my flat is on FIRE........... de whole corridor is filled with black smoke.....at first i thought it was a light burning.... eventually when i walk out de corridor, de smoked is sooooo thick till u can't de see de other end of de corridor....... i went down de staircase thinking that de smoke was from de other level....but then it wasn't from dere.... i look down from de corridor....de smoke was coming from de void deck...... a sofa was burnt..... i saw de fire..... from my floor....which is de 9th floor..... it was so big..... i take this chance to go to de void deck to check out what was happening..... as i go down using stairs.... i saw funny things..... a neighbour rush out de flat with all their belonging ...kinda of funny... first tyme experience......hahak..... when i reach de ground floor.. de fire was put off.....a neighbour of mine put de fire off using PAILS of water... some of the neighbour pour water from level 5..... a few minutes later de police came down and a few minutes after that.... de SCDF came down.... but its too late.... de fire has went off.... de sofa was all burnt.... they suspect maybe de fire come from people who smoke..... dey throw de cigratte down... oh my god.... my flat just finish their painting job....sadly its been destroy by de unsudden fire.. its de first tyme i experienced it...... de fire.... de crowd... de police and de SCDF teams surrounding de area......luckily everything went fine now..... alhamdulilah syukur...... juz now pergi jemputan mak busu..... at ang mo kio ave 5..... OK lah... not bad.... actually me family thought de jemputan was yesterday.... da siap2 skali rupanya nari.... buang current.... tak jadi g jemputan... we head 2 jurong...... g kenduri...... de fire was a really new experience..............

QUOTE 4 TODAY!!!

Begin - to begin is half the work, let half still remain; again begin this, and thou wilt have finished.

post 6

alhamdulilah.... berakhir sudah hari dan masa yang dinantikan-nantikan....... "teacher's day"... supposingly... we meet at 9.45AM..... however..... we end up meeting at 10.30AM.......haha....i was dere at 9.50...... i thought i was de one who is late...i don't want to b de first one dere... funny arh..... skali im de one who hav to wait 4 them(seha su and liyana)...liyana always late come at abt 12+ i guess.... too bad 4 me...... we went to school den meet sheena,sarah,teck soon,boon yong and gabriel...... meet mr tsia, cikgu badariah,ms suhailah,mr lee,mr zahid and many more.........i really miss me secondary days...... de jokes we made...pranks we made....haha...... it's all memories now.... but the friendships still lies between us... hyzal n salleh join us later.... wait for renu,chans and shaakira..... damn late..... we left de school abt 1+pm..... plan to eat.... too many choices to choose.... at last we made our decision to eat at soul garden..... sadly su cannot join us.... she have 2 go 2 werk.... wow damn long queue.. we are in de waiting list......fortunely we got sits for 8 of us... we start eating at 2 and left at about 4pm....... many birthday's was celebrated dere...... after eating..... we slack.... sit at starbuck.....talk2... all kind of stories was brought up....... funny..... at about 7+ i decided to leave..... tired.... 7+am woke up accompany me mom and grandpa for x-ray........ de day was fun...... full of laughter and memories......hahak...

QUOTE 4 TODAY!!!

"Friendship, like the immortality of the soul, is too good to be believed. When friendships are real, they are not glass threads or frost work, but the solidest things we know."

blog 5

alhmdulilah....nari last paper.....hahak........ hilang dan lesap sudah satu tangunggjawab.....LEGA...... hmmm.....6 weeks of holiday da pun start.... next week class chalet........4 days 3 nite kot....eee tak sabar.............. first tyme gather as a classmate..... can see their true colours......MUAHAHA.......... tease one another.... i think im not staying all de 3 nite.... got something on..... HOPEFULLY it was a fun chalet.... hope so......

QUOTE 4 TODAY!!!

The purpose of life, after all, is to live it, to taste experience to the utmost, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experiences.
Eleanor Roosevelt

blog 4

today de exam goes on smoothly...... thank god.....but de worst thing is that while i was doing me paper..... me nose bleed out of sudden....maybe my body temperature is too hot that tyme.....futhermore till now i keep having running nose....so tired....me eyes are burning..... sakit sakit jugak....appetite makan pun naik.....haish2....i gain weight this year... worst than before.... even my mom da complain.....hahak...... klakar babe...alamak nie hidung dok bersin ajer....skali gua potong ni hidung......hahak...... 2morrow no school.... but de day after 2morow ada exam "C PROGRAMMING"....is itu subject tak paham seh....aiyoyo........

QUOTE 4 TODAY!!!

Dreams pass into the reality of action. From the actions stems the dream again; and this interdependence produces the highest form of living.

blog 3

haish....today me not feeling quite well.......me throat is itchy..... me head feels heavy n me body feels weak.... hopefully de sickness didn't drag long..... today i visit atok....he looks better than before...... ALHAMDULILAH..... de think is he has no appetite to eat..... pity him...... today me can't concentrate on revising de subject 4 tomorrow.... 2morrow me having ELECTRICAL PRINCIPLES.... aiyoyoyo.......de aircon in de exam hall is soooooooooooooo cold.... really can't stand it....... hahak..... bsok paper starts pukul 12.30 ends at 2.30pm..... hopefully i do well 4 all de papers so that i didn't have to retake de module.... AMIN..... tyme flies pretty fast if u really do the paper.... talking of that.... i nearly lost 4 marks on me maths paper.... luckily i check... if not...WASTED babe.... 2 more papers to go....after that, there's a long holiday..... muahahaha........ me class already book a chalet at pasir ris..... each have to pay $40.... quite a big sum i guess....... oh ya....4get to mention... me best fren used-to-be message me back last friday.... i really miss msg-ing him.... after de pass 6 years somethin happen that make us stay apart a few months i guess..... but luckily he stills remember me..... ALHAMDULILAH......thanks man..... think that's about it 4 now folks...........

QUOTE 4 TODAY!!!

Since we met its been you and I, a tear for a tear baby eye for an eye and u know that my heart gonnna cry if you leave me lonely cuz u not just my friend your my homie
..Jarule..

blog 2

hmmm..........02 july was a tiring dae.... balik dari sekolah terus g KKH(kandang kerbau hospital)..me adeq kaki dier ada problem...from dere..me my siblings and my parents g chinatown... nak beli beads...me my sis n my mom berura2 nak buat business... buat accessories.. berjam kat kedai beads... then g patah balik little india... nak makan chapati... 4 me i order mee goreng n air pepsi twist... sodap.. sampai rumah gitu gini nak dekat kul 9pm.. balik terus buat homework esp C Programming...bsok kena pass up.. hari ni masih belom habis2..haish..rabak...da la penat n ngantok... de whole day bnyk berjalan........nyTe2

@syak@

blog 1

dah lama retire from writting blog...now i'm back...sepanjang hidup ini bnyk perkara telah berlaku..yang sedih mahupun yang gembira..kebanyakan yang menyedihkan..isk3..walau bagaimanapun bnyk benda yang telah berubah dalam hidupku...contohnya dari segi emosi..dari seorg yang penuh kesabaran bertukar menjadi seorg yang cepat marah..ada sajer tak kena..salah sikit da melenting..haish..andai saje masa blh berubah,akan ku perbetulkan kesilapan yang lalu..masalah keluarga ku pula bertambah berat..apakan lagi masalah peribadi..bertimbun..lepas satu,satu lagi masalah datang menyahut..masa berlalu begitu pantas..sehingga aku tidak meyadarinya permergiannya...dalam sekelip mata aku hilang segalanya...hilang sesuatu yang amat berharga dalam diri ini...iaitu persahabatan................................................